ext_170730 ([identity profile] lauand.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] twopoint 2009-08-12 01:53 pm (UTC)

It doesn't work like that with me. Time is only a factor when talking about putting a distance between the fic and my memory of the fic, so that I can read it again instead of reciting it by heart, which blinds me to the fic itself (I think I already mentioned in a former discussion).

But the fact that something written by me strongly upsets my digestive system is more related to the fic than to time. Normally, when I finish a fic there's a short time of euphoria when I think it's my masterwork. Then, I re-read it and I realize it's not so much. Sometimes I even realize it's crap. But that's nearly instantaneous. What happens with time is that I find (specially in the longer fics) scenes and paragraphs that are CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAP. But sometimes I find good comebacks, too (dialogs are my favourite part to write) or something witty that makes up for all the cheapness. Well, not for all, but still.

Anyway, I'm a bit of a narcissist. I like to re-read my own stuff after a while. I'm not blind to the utter cheapness, it's just that I center more on the other bits, the ones I like (even if they're not objectively good). Maybe it's because my lack of self-expectations that I can take my writing so lightly, who knows.

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